Just a thought.

Hey, I was just thinking about my life.

I’m sixteen years old and on Friday nights what do  I do? I sit home alone on my laptop, on facebook or youtube hearing and seeing other peoples lives. I do this on Saturdays too. I’ve realised that I’m boring, I need to get out and do something.

Except, the problem is my friends are as boring as beans. I hate it. I’m so bored with life and I’m stuck in a rut and I can’t do anything about it. I really can’t. Sometimes, it makes me feel so low and depressed, I feel like I’m having a mid-life crisis in my teens. It’s bad enough that I’m stuck at home. But it’s worse that my 51 year old mother is having more of a life than I.

I think the problem is I’m so isolated in where I live. I live north, whereas all my friends live west. It’s too far to commute to actually catch up, no strings attached. AND, I do not know any guys. I have no boy friends. None of the male species. Sometimes I really loathe going to a single sex school, especially when girls are so bitchy and horrible. I look at these facts and it makes me wonder, how did I get so anti-social?

Why aren’t people attracted to me? (Not sexually or anything like that, just in general, people don’t want to be around me). I feel so alone. I shouldn’t, I have a loving family and a great bunch of friends, just not the people I want to be around and none that want to include me in their scene. Eh, listen to me, ranting like a manic depressive.

I shouldn’t get so down, I’m sure many people are in my situation? Eh. I need some substance to my exsistence and at the moment I have nothing.

Signing off,

Sparkie.

Plastic (Not) Fantastic

For some unknown reason, Kmart has this stupid idea to wrap the already packaged make-up products in endless amounts of sticky-tape. It’s hard enough to get to the product in the first place, let alone with this extra sealant on top of it all. And it’s awful for the environment! Come on Kmart, pick up your act!

Just a quite post.
Signing off
Sparkie

New homepage.

Oh how I love it!

I’m such a Generation Y – a ’screenager’, ‘mediavore’ or whatever you want to call me but I love downloading new things onto my best permanent pal, my reliable friend Issac Inspiron 1525 – My laptop. Last month I downloaded me a new browser, after testing out a few (Internet Explorer, Mozilla Firefox, Apple Safari, Mozilla Flock, Opera etc.) and I stumbled across this little company, you may have heard of called Google. Google have created Google Chrome, simply the most convienient way to browse the web. I won’t advertise it, or its feature I will just say that I have fallen in love with it, and I will definitly never ever use Internet Explorer ever again! I mainly use Chrome but for stuff like Piczo and this (WordPress) I use FireFox. It is the best.

And on my new browser is this new thing called iGoogle (find it at either http://igoogle.com or http://google.com/ig) it is Google, but with extra bits. It is totally customizable with widgets, themes and much more!

Google is my homeboy!

Signing off from the techno-rant,

Sparkie

Exams and Concerts

Well, what has been happening this week in Sparkie Land?

Well this week at school I had year eleven school exams.

Yuck.

Yuck to the max.

I had five, the maximum you could have was six, so lucky I did drama – no exam! Woo!
Anyway, this was my week of exams:

Monday; o9:oo- english 12:00 – french

Tuesday; 09:00 – none 12:00 – modern history

Wednesday; 09:00 – legal studies 12:00 – none

Thursday; 09:00 – maths applications 12:00 -none

Friday; NONE! WOOOO!

And, now, after that week, I get one day off to recouperate, and I can’t even do that because I have to clean and stuff, and then it is my dancing concert and rehersals!

Woo.

Yeah, so on Sunday is the mother of all mothers, the concert. I have a ballet solo, which I am not looking forward to and a contemporary which was looking like a piece of poo-pie last rehersal and then my friend and I open the senoir jazz and tap section! (‘Singing in the Rain’) So the pressure is on.

But right now, I am relaxing, resting, sneezing (hayfever and a dusty room) looking forward to the weekend and the new semester of school which starts on tuesday. We get a pupil free day for semester changeover on Monday but I still have to go into school for auditions for a music festival that the two school orchestras I’m in are auditioning for, but its only from 12:00 ’til 2:30, and don’t have to wear uniform, so its all good.

It seems that this post is just a big whinge. Oh well, get used to it, I’m a bit of a complainer. Lol.

Well, that’s all.

Good luck if you have exams coming up too!

Signing off,

Sparkie.

Tetris. Gotta love it.

Oh you know you do. Love Tetris, that is. It is the most wicked game ever!

Visit http://freetetris.org to find out more! Lol.

Apart from my love of Tetris, this blog is announcing my plans for my future. I have decided to try and get on TV. “Ha! Tough chance!” I hear you call, but nonetheless the only way to fail is to not try. I want a career on the TV being a news reporter or Rove or something like that, lol. Okay, after year 12 (graduating year in Aus), depending  on my TER (teritary education ranking for those un-knowledable about this particular education system) I will try to either get into Journalism or a Bachelor of Media and then see where that takes me.  Phwoar, decisions in life are tough. If neither of them work out I want to try advertising or marketing design and stuff along those lines. But, that is my career path for this month…lol.

Well, I just made my bed and I got my finger caught between my matress and my bed base – yeowch! I think it may bruise.

How unfortunate!

Signing off

Sparkie

Caught in the headlights.

I have a dilemma.

It’s a secret though, so shhhhh.

It’s a personal dilemma, and I have been tossing it over in my mind for a long time now.

As you can imagine, it’s a tough decision, its about friendship.

Friendship with girls.

Girls are tough cookies.

Before I bore you, I will tell you the problem.

My friendship group at school is a group of eight. 2 girls are my closest friends and I love them to death. They just chillout and we always have the best fun without trying. They aren’t afraid to live a little and run around and do fun stuff. The other 3 girls, they just sit. Sit and say nothing at lunch and recess times. Now, the dilemma is that one of the “sitter” girls happens to be my ‘best friend forever’. The problem with my ‘bff’ is that she alwas brings me down. She is always grumpy and mopy and it just kills my good mood. One time I was happy and cheery and a little hyperactive and she told me I was too happy and really weird. True story.

I want to go and be free with the fun girls, but I can’t. I’m stuck, as my ‘bff’ won’t let me go.

I’ve had this problem before with her and a another girl. She got really upset and possessive of me and I didn’t know what to do.  This problem last year ruined the best friendship I ever had with this girl. And now I’m stuck.

Any advice?

Coz that would be wikkity wack yakkity yack.

Sparkie, Signing off.

Dear Friend,

I was thinking the other day about you and I. We were so close. Almost sisters. Attached at the hip.

I realised, I couldn’t remember how we became un-friends. (if I can steal the un- from SGIC — un-worry, lol) Where did it all go wrong? We were best friends, nothing could come between us, but what did? Where did our friendship go?

I also came to the realisation that I never thanked you. You got me through one of the roughest patches of my life. You were always there for me, replacing the ones that should have been, that weren’t. I think you know who I am talking about.

Looking back over our friendship, I know now that you never judged me, never cared what I did or what I said, or that I had the polar opposite musical taste to you. I know that our friendship was un-condintional and I’m really sorry that I fucked that up.

This post is for you, I’m sorry and I want to thankyou.

Squeeze.

Confidence

Hey again

The other day my friend made a comment about me that really got me thinking. We were talking about something and she said

“Georgia, you’re the most confident person I know”

And, I felt like replying (I can’t remember if I actually did)

“No, I’m not. I’m actually racked with self-doubt, low self-esteem. I depend on others, because I’m afraid if I do something by myself, I’ll do it all wrong then get blamed, where as if I’ve done it with someone, we can share blame. I constantly am scared of people judging me, especially my friends and family, so I withhold on anything I do or say before I do it. I care so much about what other people think, and I am actually really shy. I have shocking self-image issues, and constantly self-concious about what I wear, what I eat, I am the least confident person I know. I just fake it”

And that got me thinking, is that all confidence really is, just faking it until others believe its real, then over time, maybe you yourself believe you’re confident. Because wow, confidence is not all its said to be.
And that got me thinking, do people really percieve me as the most confident girl in the room? Because I find that amazing. Me, confident? No, not at all. Have I succeeded in tricking, fooling people into believing I’m something that I’m not. I wear a mask of confidence, and people can’t see through that. I think that is amazing. Is that what all these confident people that you see down the street,or the celebrities in the magazines who seem confident, but really there just faking it. Wow. Reality Check there.

Thats all. For now.

Signing off

Sparkie

Black is back, is back, is back!

Lol, sorry for the random title, just listening to the song by Pitchers and couldn’t think of another title! Ha, the cheek of me. (lame and random,sorry for that)

Well, this post is about what I’ve been up to the past week, and boy has it been exciting!
On Friday the 8th of May was the year 11/12 Formal – how exciting! It was at the Hilton Hotel in the Grand Ballroom and it was a brilliant night, full of dancing, laughing, eating, look beautiful, having photo shoots and just all round celebration my friends and peers. Wow, that sounds like a load of garbo that a posh prissy tea-drinking granny would write. Basically, I could’ve danced all night, I could’ve danced all night and still have asked for more. – My Fair Lady

So that was wicked.

On the saturday of apparent recovery, I had dance from 10.30 – 4.30 – oh what fun!! Haha, I couldn’t feel my feet. My toes still feel like I’ve wrapped band-aids around the base of them, but really tight so the tips go numb. Note To Self: Don’t jump and dance for hours with 9cm high-heeled shoes on. By the time I got home saturday I was starving so my sister and I travelled to the Loverly FoodWorks for some yum-yums.  And to BlockBuster for some TV-Delights. Oh what fun!

We hired Slumdog Millionaire, Son of Rambow, The Da Vinci Code and The Invasion.

We only got to watch 3 of 4 (everthing but the Invasion)

And Slumdog Millionaire was brilliant, as expected. Dev Patel from Skins was in it, that was a bonus.

But Son of Rambow – CLASSIC! Loved it, loved it, loved it!

Go out and rent it now! It  is sooo funny. Oh, it was brilliantttttt.

Anyway, must depart.

Signing off,

Sparkie.

wolverine and merlin.

hey hey hey!

i have just returned from seeing X-Men Origins: Wolverine and I must admit, I loved it! But I guess I am a bit bias as I love a good action flick and nothing beats this. If you like the X-Men Triology or any new generation super-hero movie, or if you like action films or even if you jus tlike Hugh Jackman, check out this movie, it is brilliant. Phwoar! – That’s probably the only word to describe it.

And now, I come home and I am watching Merlin. Heard of it? It’s that British show that they keep advertising on Channel Ten. I’m watching it at this very moment, andit is a bit corny, the guy that plays Merlin is a bit, I don’t know a fitting description, but weak and gawky seems alright. But yes, not exaactly the best show on the box. Lol. It’s a tad corny. (btw, tad = about this [---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

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Alrighty, well now I’m off to watch the wonderful (sarcasm) 51st Annual Logie Awards. And check out what the f_ck the hype is about Gretel Kileens “new logies haircut.” Which apparently, is so she can go incognito out about town, but if she’s unveiling it on a NATIONAL TELEVISION EVENT that 90% of AUSTRALIA WILL WATCH! Gosh, her method is so clever (more sarcasm).

Signing off,

Sparkie