I’m so scared. I’m so scared there actually is something wrong. I think there might be but how can I tell? What if it’s all in my head…what if I’m making it up? What if I’m not? I don’t know what to do. I’m so lost and confused.
Just before someone wrote/said something on tumblr and I started crying. It made me so happy that I actually belonged that I started crying. It made me think that someone actually cared. But how do I know if they do or not?
Before that I got a message saying that I had a cute smile and that they hope they get to see it soon and it made me smile (and freak out a bit) but maybe I’ve got it all wrong, maybe people do care.
I just feel like they don’t because everyone is so wrapped up in their own lives that no one really notices someone without much of a life. I understand that I should make the world revolve around me but at the moment nothing revolves around me, I make or break nothing, I am nothing.
Lately, I’ve been crying all the time. I mean all the time. I haven’t cried this much in years. And if I’m not crying I’m thinking about not crying. I don’t even know why. I just cry all the time. I don’t even have a reason too. I used to be so happy. Where did that go? I never used to cry and now I always cry.
What do I do with myself? I’m not the same. Unfortunately, I’ll never be the same.
